Waking up at 6:00 AM in the morning, getting ready in a rush, attending college, hanging out with my friends with some grapevine and coffee on the side. This is me…I’m just a common person just like everyone else , Although I am quite young, I confess I am haunted by a harrowing feel that I haven’t achieved anything yet. It’s not like I haven’t tried, God knows I have tried my fair share. But all those efforts have been in vain. I have graduated college, but is it enough? This question gives me sleepless nights.
I am just a normal person who is quite shy and introverted. I am unsure of doing anything as I feel I lack enough self-confidence. And if things don’t go according to plan, I get riddled by anxiety. This experience is harrowing. I feel tired of trying and lose whatever little confidence I have. I look to my childhood friends, I find that they all have gone on and achieved something in their lives and are in stellar roles, but me, I am just a nobody who’s frittering away time. And then the question really forms, “Who exactly am I?”
It was amid these dark clouds that I decided that I would start again. I went ahead and joined an MBA course at Koshys Institute of Management Studies. Many would question my decision and cast doubts on it. But I found that it quickly made sense. Yes, there were many challenges along the way. I found mathematics challenging, I found that my introverted nature was a hurdle and led to having stage fear, I couldn’t trust myself to make right decision at the right time. But I was determined to overcome those challenges. I found that, my course, MBA is not only to learn about business studies but also for developing my overall personality. It imbued me with good leadership skills, risk taking abilities, excellent communication skills and many more. These seemingly small successes snowballed and I as soon found out about myself performing well in curriculum like Stock market, Economics, Statistics, Accounts and many more such subjects. It is quite ironic that the more I ran from life, it haunted me but as soon as I embraced the challenge, life seemed all ready to teach me all over again.
I found that it taught me just like a mother would teach her child, be it’s behaviour, communication, etiquettes and how to take life ahead. I listened to it, in rapture and entranced by it. I lost track of time; all my previous doubts were reduced to mere diversions. MBA to be became “Mother of Bachelor Aspirant”. As an aspirant I reached over the stars. I studied well, never stopped trying, and most importantly, never lose hope. I started trusting myself more. Then it came to the big day, the day of placement interview. I found it surprisingly easy. Thanks to “the grace of hope”, I got placed in an MNC! I was overjoyed to point of tears! Finally, “Success, I was glad to make your acquaintance!” Looking back at this journey, it was fought with challenges that goaded me to quit at every turn. But the destination was pleasant and satisfying. I decided to pen down my experiences so that you too don’t lose hope and keep trying. Let Lady Hope guide you on your grand adventure that leads to finding your real self on the way to your destination.
Before I conclude, I would advise you to find yourself first. It might not answer every doubt you have but it will atleast give a reason to trust yourself. Never lose hope, it has a habit of not letting you down. Failure leads to success. Isn’t this what life is all about? Go out there and write a magnificent title to your own story!
“Walk on, walk on
With hope in your heart
And you’ll never walk alone”
– Gerry and the pacemakers